Art, DIY, Landscape, Photography

Grønt og blått

Et rundt maleri fra noen år siden. Tror det er rundt 35 i diameter. Dette bildet tok jeg før jeg malte en hvit husky sittende på stien. Syns egentlig det var bedre uten 🙃 Glemt å legge det ut før 💚💙🧡
Et bittelite sommermaleri som jeg solgte i forrige uke. 9 x 6 cm 😊 Har noen maleri til salgs på SevenDesign i Tromsø🌿
Art, DIY, Landscape, Poems, Quotes

Northern sky

30 x 20, I think 😄
Close up reindeer.

“The sight filled the northern sky; the immensity of it was scarcely conceivable. As if from Heaven itself, great curtains of delicate light hung and trembled. Pale green and rose-pink, and as transparent as the most fragile fabric, and at the bottom edge a profound and fiery crimson like the fires of Hell, they swung and shimmered loosely with more grace than the most skillful dancer.” 🌌

Art, DIY, Landscape

Rainbow night

My little late night creativity painting.. Couldn’t sleep last night so I thought why not just spend my time wisely 😄 A bit unusual colour choices for me, but I like how it turned out. Was unsure if I choose the right colour for the mountains but I can always change that later if the mood strikes me..🌈🎨

This painting is 65 x 45. Acrylic painting.

Everyday life, Health, List, Quotes, Relationship

Currently…

Reading: Nothing actually.. I loaned a bunch of book at the library, but I think maybe borrowing/buying books is an entirely different hobby than actually reading them!

Learning: Finally trying to learn Northern Sámi. I am what you could call a “plastic sámi”; someone who is indigenous sámi by blood and flesh, but never learned the language because of the Norwegianazation process. So I often feel not “real” sámi but not “real” Norwegian either, it’s a bit of an identity crisis thing, and kind of an emotional wound that I know a lot of sámis have.

Watching: Random nature documentaries mostly..:)

Listening to on Audible: A wizard of Earthsea by Ursula Le Guin (got it recommended by a friend on Facebook)

Drinking every day: Coffee. And more coffee 😀 (should drink more water..)

Happy about: Made new friends lately, and also understanding my own “language” better, how I think and relate to the world around me.

Not so happy about: Being in constant physical pain, so much that I cannot function properly. And I struggle expressing how bad it actually is, because it doesn’t show from the outside. My back, neck, face and head is so painful, that painkillers aren’t working anymore, and I am at a loss what to do.

Thankful for: People who love me. Cliché but true 🙂

Art, DIY, Landscape, Photography

More blue

50 x 40 cm. Not completely in scale with the room in this room simulation, but wanted to show how the colours would work in a setting like that. The app is called HallFrames.
One shouldn’t have to move mountains for others, but it’s possible to climb them together. Shared sorrows are half the burden, shared joy is as good as infinite. ♾🎨💙🗻☺

One of my latest paintings! It didn’t turn out how I saw it in my head, just different, but still good. I used only three colours on it; white, blue and brown. Mostly blue, as I do with 90% of my art 💙🤓 I rarely use black in mountain/rock paintings, it’s too harsh, I find it much better to use different pigments that makes it all look much more true to nature. You rarely see all black nature, unless you are in Iceland or somewhere else vulcanic😄

Also, I have two of my paintings at the Arctic Adventure center in Tromsø. They are for sale by the way 😄

My chubby penguin is spending his Christmas at Arctic Adventure center alongside some peaks and good company 👭💙🎨🐧❤ #theonlypenguininthearctic
Awareness, Culture, DIY, Everyday life, Outfit, Pets, Photography, Sewing

Pride-parade 2019

Gruppebilde utenfor Kongsbakken vgs før vi begynte å gå.
Hva bedre å ha på seg til anledningen enn det antrekket jeg føler meg stoltest av og finest i 💃
har helt glemt å legge ut bilde av kofta mi på bloggen før, og hele syprosessen, men dette er altså min håndlagde kofte (som ennå ikke er helt ferdig, hysj🤓)
En veldig fargerik Katharina 🏳️‍🌈
I paraden.
Fikk meg en ny venn i paraden! @gullvinge på insta 😊
Imponerende kostymer..❄
😍
Everyday life, Photography

På loppiskafé

To nokså bra bilder Heidrun tok av meg på Kulta sin lille kafé på søndag. Likte fargene, masse nyanser av grønt. Og grønt liker vi!

Kulta hadde loppemarked, jeg fant meg en sykt kul kåpe med inuitmotiv, en fargerik tights som viste seg å være litt for trang over rumpestumpen da jeg kom hjem, et par rosa joggesko jeg hadde helt likens av for noen år siden (og angra på at jeg ga bort) samt en fin svart singlet med noe mønster. Kan legge ut bilder senere, iallfall av kåpa! 🤓
Everyday life, Outfit, Spirituality

All your colours

“Sometimes she moves like rivers, sometimes like trees;
Or tranced and fixed like South Pole silences;
Sometimes she is beauty, sometimes fury, sometimes neither.”

Go towards the people that see you for who you truly are, in all your colours. For your badass kindness and fierce compassion. How we treat others reaches far beyond outer beauty and appearances; touching someone elses’ heart and helping them feel free and loved unconditionally is a gift that will never stop giving.

Hope everyone had a great summer 🌷

Culture, Everyday life

I did an ancestry test and here is what I found

Some months ago I decided I was finally going to order myself one of those DNA kits I have been wanting, just for fun. It was on sale and I researched (by that, I mean one google search😄) to see what is the best company when it comes to privacy and storing of information, and I landed on FamilyTreeDNA. I am no (conspiracy) theorist who thinks they will use my tiny bit of saliva for anything sinister, but still, you never know. Although if they want to clone me or something, that would actually be very practical!

I have always been curious about anthropology, culture and history. I believe people are people no matter where we live or come from, all sharing the same basics in heart and mind, but these relative things like ethnicity and DNA can be quite interesting, too! There is so much to learn, and it’s fun to see the connections across borders.

I think it’s good to preserve culture and language. I am what you could call a “plastic sámi”; someone who is indigenous sámi by blood and flesh, but never learned the language because of the Norwegianazation process. So I often feel not “real” sámi but not “real” Norwegian either, it’s a bit of an identity crisis thing, and kind of an emotional wound that I know a lot of sámis have. Maybe this is a reason I wanted to test. I do feel proud and honoured though to carry on sámi handcraft traditions such as the gákti (kofta) and duodji and telling the stories attached to them and of Sápmi💙💚❤💛

I received my package, filled out the little form and swabbed my cheeks, one on each side. Next day, I shipped it off to overseas and waited for my results (which took some weeks).

Before getting them, I was pretty sure it would say mostly Scandinavian and some Asian (since the sámi peoples origins come from the East way back in the days, before settling in Sápmi (Sweden, Finland, Norway and Russia). Perhaps some percentage viking too would be cool, like 26% shieldmaiden, lol..🙌

It showed 69% from Finnoscandia/Uralic

23% Scandinavian, 1% unknown (must be alien!) and the rest a quite small insignificant 7% East Asian/Siberian. (All results in pictures on the bottom).

Through doing this test I also discovered that I have Kven ancestry as well.

The Kven people are a minority group of people who migrated from Finland to the north of Norway, mostly to Finnmark before the borders between the Nordic countries were official. Kvens are considered an official minority in Norway.

Found this amazing restored wedding photograph of some of my ancestors from 1880, five generations ago in Álta, after going way back on the family tree. Typical surnames on my tree are Mella, Kitti, Turi, Nilsen, Hætta, Fors, Aslaksen and Isaksen. Caption that came with this picture:
“Sami wedding in Bossekop, Alta (1880). We see coastal Sami costumes, as well Kven clothings. A mixed ethnic wedding, I presume. Photo: Sommier/Mantegazza I believe these people are ancestors of many of today’s inhabitants of Alta. The true Alta-citizen is mostly descentants of Sami and Kven (Finnish languaged) people. The wedding couple are identified as Aslak Aslaksen and Guri Nilsdatter Mella from Rafsbotn.”
Kven man and sámi woman in Pasvik, Varanger where my mother side of family is from at the end of the 1800s.
Map showing my origins.
List of some of the Finno-ugric peoples

I found it interesting how it says ‘Finland’ instead of ‘Finnish’, but after reading a bit about the other indigenous groups and how many there are considered to be Finno-ugric or Uralic (15 in total with subgroups), it makes more sense. Different indigenous peoples coming from roughly same area, but mainly sharing language is the case here. Sámi, kven (Norwegian finns – one of the subgroups) and Finns are for example grouped as Finno-Ugric and have similarities in language, and is as we know nothing like the other Scandinavian languages.

After doing the DNA test, I come to learn of haplogroups; basically “a genetic population group of people who share a common ancestor on the patriline or the matriline.”
My sweet grandmother (my mum’s mum) in Sør-Varanger 🙂

Here are some facts about the kven language:

-In 2005 it was officially considered a minority language in Norway.

-The University in Tromsø now gives classes in kven.

-From the 1930s until the 1980s, the kven language was illegal to speak and use in school, and was considered a “bastard language”. Despite this, it survived.

Toddler Monica in Finnmark 😄

Another cool thing about doing a test like this, is that you can match up with other relatives if you and they have agreed to be matched. I have found a lot of distant cousins, and have sent message to one of them, surprised to find out that she was adopted away from our family, and I am currently helping her find out who her dad was/is. Quite exciting stuff.

Learning all this about my Finnish/Kven ancestry, I instantly felt more inclined to buy more Moomin stuff, which I believe now is my cultural heritage 😅

Video: origins of Finns, Hugarians and other Uralians

Video: Eurasian genetics

Øksfjord, Loppa municipality where my father side is from. Photo by Hilde Bye.

Another cool thing I found was that two of my relatives, Isak Mikkelsen Tornensis and Berit Mikkelsdatter Tornensis (siblings), in 1898 was part of the reindeer project in Alaska.
Read more about it here and here.

Art, Dharma, Outfit, Spirituality, Tattoo, Yoga

Wrathful

Absolutely adore my new tiny chest tattoo😍 It’s a buddhist phurba/kīla (wrathful sword, dagger)🌸 All of a sudden my chest feels a million times nicer, and I don’t feel as hesitant or overly self conscious to wear cleavaged tops/dresses anymore. Thought about doing it for so long, last week it happened! At Pounding That tattoo studio in Tromsø by @guillaume.arzon.tattooer (instagram) 🙏

Close up, fresh 😊

Düdjom Lingpa depicted holding a phurba in his left hand and a vajra in his right

Phurba/kīla

Crystal phurba

The kīla is one of many iconographic representations of divine “symbolic attributes” of Vajrayāna and Hindu deities. When consecrated and bound for usage, the kīla is a nirmanakaya manifestation of Vajrakīlaya.
He is embodied in the kīla as a means of destroying (in the sense of finalising and then freeing) violence, hatred, and aggression by tying them to the blade of the kīla and then transmuting them with its tip.”

Art, Landscape, List

Creative work

21 x 29 cm

9 x 6 cm

21 x 29 cm

45 x 55 cm

Some tips for making the most of your creativity/getting shit done! 🙂

1. Put on inspiring music while working. Inspiring is relative of course, whatever floats your goat. I personally like anything from Lady Gaga (her new stuff) to Guts to Enya.. Just make sure it’s not distracting.
2. Write a list of the things you need/want to do/make. As you cross them off, sense of achievement grows.
3. Take pictures. Sometimes when I paint, I take pictures instead of just looking at it to find out what to do next, because somehow I feel like the camera shows a slightly different reality which your eyes can’t always spot.

4. Use Pinterest or Instagram for inspiration. These are great platforms to look for creative work. I know Instagram specifically has this bad reputation of “giving” people terrible self-esteem, with all the filters and “perfect” pictures, but it all
depends what you look for. Like almost anything, it can be used in a healthy way.

🌷🌷🌷

Beauty, DIY, Make-Up, Outfit, Sewing

Painnebåinn

Slik sier man pannebånd hvor jeg kommer fra iallfall 😄 En enkel d.i.y som jeg ladge for masse år siden; sydde et lite hårtørkle/pannebånd ut av et sjal med fint fargerikt blomstermønster. På midten av båndet er det et lite tøystykke som klemmer det sammen og gir sånn fin fasong. Enkel dobbelknute i nakken ✌ Nå som jeg begynner å få hår igjen (holdt det på 7 mm en god stund), så er det gøy å leke med litt farger, frisyrer og diverse hårpynt. Også må jeg innrømme at min naturlige hårfarge ikke er så verst, er nok ferdig med å farge det!💙💚❤💛

DIY, Quotes, Sewing

All the colours

Just hanging out with my friend Diana ✌✂️📍😎

Ordered from Maritex Gavpi

Having sewing projects going on like the one I am working on now (stay tuned😊), makes me so motivated. The more creative work I do, the more creativity flows. And it flows from a natural, not forced place, which I think is crucial for good results. One less positive thing about being in a creative mode though is how much money I spend on craft supplies 😅 I probably didn’t need to order all these ribbons/bands. But they all looked so cute. And I like having options. Sorry, wallet. I will make sure to use it all, somehow!

“Create with the heart, build with the mind”🌹

Photography, Photoshoot, Poems

Veversken Tid

Photo by Irina Bileanschi, 2016 📸 Miss my long hair 🌹

Veversken Tid

Den blonde veversken Tid

sitter i skyggerisset under trærne

med renningen av solstråler

spillende mellom fingrene.

– Jeg vever lys av mørke,

sier veversken Tid,

– og fletter sang av sorg.

Med forvandlingens under i fingertuppene

slår hun livet ditt nennsomt

inn i veven av glemsel.

Og det gjør ikke vondt mer. Din angst

blir lyset i en skjær bjørkelegg

i mainatta, din lengsel

en blomst som vender krona si blygt

for nattens dugg.


– Hans Børli

– Hans Børli
Dharma, Quotes, Yoga

Being no-one, going nowhere

The way of yoga and dharma is to become less and less until we are like the wind in the trees or the ripples on the water. In reality only a beautiful movement of love, compassion and joy seeking nothing for itself but serving the world with genuine kindness and generosity. Letting go (awakening) of the ever demanding ego (self identity) is the greatest gift we can bring to our own life and the life of all beings. The less of ‘you’ there is, the happier you will be. What a paradox. Becoming no-one, going no-where. A joyous zero, empty yet fulfilled.

Books, Dharma, Everyday life, Landscape, List, Photography

Currently…

From a rainy autumn day in the Arctic 🍃🍂🍁

Reading: Aspergirls by Rudy Simone

Watching: Shameless on Netflix. British series from early 2000s. It’s brilliant!

Listening to on Audible: The Life of the Buddha and The Bhagavad Gita

Drinking every day: Black tea with stevia and soy milk

Happy about: Becoming better at expressing my wishes and boundaries

Not so happy about: Feeling confused about my living situation

Thankful for: Having a bit more financial security for the first time in years

Adventure, Dharma, Landscape, Photography, Spirituality

Sky

When one looks toward one’s own mind –

The root of all phenomena –

There is nothing but vivid emptiness,
Nothing concrete there to be taken as real.

It is present and transparent, utter openness,
Without outside, without inside –
An all pervasiveness
Without boundary and without direction.

The wide-open expanse of the view,
The true condition of the mind,
Is like the sky, like space:
Without center, without edge, without goal.

By leaving whatever i experience
Relaxed in ease, just as it is,
I have arrived at the vast plain
That is the absolute expanse.

Dissolving into the expanse of emptiness
That has no limits and no boundary,
Everything i see, everything i hear,
My own mind, and the sky all merge.

– Shabkar

Dharma, Yoga

Magical projections


What we understand to be phenomena are but the magical projections of the mind.

The hollow vastness of the sky
I never saw to be afraid of anything.
All this is but the self-glowing light of clarity.

There is no other cause at all.
All that happens is but my adornment.
Better, then, to stay in silent meditation.

– Yeshe Tsogyal

Dharma, Everyday life, Health, List, Music, Outfit

Authenticity

Purple and green, velvet and wool.

What is authenticity, as in being authentic? I have been thinking about this lately, although I can barely spell the word. Is is being completely transparent and honest all the time? Is it being open about your struggles, hopes and dreams? Or is it to be so in touch with your true nature & your personality that you simply cannot be anything else?

I think it might be a combination of all these, as honesty, openness and personality all seem to shine forth automatically when one is resting in one’s natural state. My goal would at least be to try and live in such a way that I am not fooling myself or those around me. I find it difficult though. By fooling, I mean that I don’t always speak my mind when I should. Sometimes I choose holding onto resentment. Sometimes I even nod along to things I don’t agree with. Sometimes I dress differently than I would like to, just to fit in.

I have been trying lately to be more open about what my experience is, it feels a bit dishonest and lonely to not do so. From a relative point of view, I have lots of labels on myself, and I try to speak openly about these matters, both in conversations and on social media. I don’t feel like hiding these aspects of me. They are useful to relate to other people and for me to navigate myself in the world, and find meaningful relations. I am all of these things and that’s okay 🙂

  • buddhist
  • bisexual
  • polyamorous
  • autistic/atypical
  • feminist
  • artistic
  • indigenous
  • chronically ill

From an absolute point of view, I guess none of these labels matter. But I am still trying to understand the absolute, so I think maybe I should not write too much about what I still need to learn and live first hand.

Hope everyone had a lovely Christmas and has a Happy new year! ❤

Adventure, Everyday life, Landscape, Photography, Photoshoot, Poems, Spirituality

Polar night

Det kvile ei natt over landet i nord,
Husan e små der kor menneskan bor.
Men tida e travel i karrige kår,
rokken han svive og vevstolen går
Det leve i løa, i naustet og smia
Et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

Snøen ligg tung over frossen jord
ute står mørket om fjell og om fjord
vår herre gir livberging, søtmat og sul
når døgnan sig fram imot advendt og jul
så støpe vi lys midt i hardaste ria
et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

Dagen e borte og natta e stor
men i mørketidslandet skal høres et ord
ei sol som skal snu så det bære mot dag
om folk som skal samles til helg og til lag
på veien mot Betlehem bære Maria
et lys, et lys, et lys imot mørketida

– Trygve Hoff

Foto av Susanne Pedersen 🙏